Drowning

I cant say anything with you getting upset. I cant have a opinion. Im dying. Even if I try to be what I want you to be, Even that I cant be enough. Im tired. Im scared. I feel trapped even.I cannot trust you fully and you have already made up you mind not to trust me. Every time we hang out we fight. WE have to fight every time we hangout ! I hate it. Im sick. I'm sad. Im depressed. I want relief. I want a way out. I want peace. There can be no peace, just separate lives. Just lives being fake with each other on a daily basis. I'll be what you think you want not what you need. Im depressed. Im lonely. Im dying inside. Unhappy with everything. Im dying inside. Do you not see me? DO you not see my pain? My frustration? My agony? Where can I go? No where? Where can I hide? No where? I can not run! You will taunt me. When Im scared, you tell me I'm weak. When I'm crying on the floor you make me feel worthless. I am nothing, a shadow. Help me, before I am destroyed emotionally.